first off, shout out to my sister that I don’t even know.. I’m finally gonna be uncle Phil guys! lol I couldn’t hold it. but I talked to my dad in full today since the last time we spoke, like a year and 1/2. I hit him initially because I wanted to let my sister know she has an older bro and I’d want to see the kid. but it got deep because for a certain reason, I wanted to know the truth right then and there from both sides.. I found it out. of course things happened to make them both break it off but bruh, there’s still a kid in the mix. but, after all this shit… I forgive him. I can’t hold a childish ass grudge with a nigga I don’t even know that well, and if I did that’s petty as shit. but he recognized I grew up to be a good guy (or “cool ass dude”) and that means alot. he doesn’t even know me at all and he can see it. hopefully we make some steps into each others lives. I’m putting my best foot forward.. always do.
“Beware of Artists” - Actual poster issued by Senator Joseph McCarthy in 1950s, at height of the red scare.
haven’t had anything to say to anyone, so I say what I can when the chance is there. but what I can and will say to you is this, whatever you’re going through… will go through, gone through is apart of your success. took me a while to get that, I thought I was just getting shitted on every which way for no reason. you’re too strong to quit so don’t think about it…. thought about giving up music lately but if I did that is be miserable.. so I gained a new love for music and writing nshit. stick with it y’all, its gonna pay off in aces.
philliefamous hahahahha our boy!
Let me take you to da moooooovies shawty
I’m sure later on you will be my baby
lets sit down and just be by my side
I got the popcorn, I know what else you like!
I’ve been thinking about just changing something in my life. everyone tells me start small, and I don’t know where to start with the small things. I have faith that God will get me out of this funk I’m in. but I do need to change something. relationship status is dry. I get curved soooo much, I know when one door closes, another one opens but nigga… when is that door gonna open? everything works out for the good for those who believe, and I do believe things will be better. I just feel like I need something more and idk where to start. anyways, I thank everybody that still follows me, I appreciate it. I don’t post shit at all. but I wanna start, …sounds weird. lol but uhhh yea. wassup y’all
ok, so. whats up dudes. idk what im feeling right now, but i gotta talk. i mean, i dont have to but… yea. im gonna be working for my uncle, being his caregiver nshit. which is great, because this nigga is old and i wont really be doing anything besides house work… grocery shopping, and other miscellaneous shit.. pretty much ill get paid to do shit here and there. a pretty damn good amount too, holllaaaaaa. thats a big upside to my financial state. i want a girlfriend. ill just come out and say it, but shit, (this is just my opinion) i feel like im not good enough. trying to shake your way out of thinking like that is a task in itself. but yea, i do think im ready to be committed. idk why people think me talking to someone good looking is out of my hands. niggas will look at me like im smoking crack and grew 2 heads if i tried to talk to a girl that isnt fat, and or ugly, or both. i know that probably came out of left field but its the truth. i need to text my brother, and really talk to him. i feel like i dont have that great of a relationship with him at all, and that shit hurts. as of lately, i havent really been up to shit. not really blogging, or putting stuff on IG or rarely going on facebook. hell, the last time i went on a beat making spree was the 16th of this month. i wouldnt say im wandering, but im not motivated like i was before to do shit. i dont care about seeing the same shit each week on the gram, not interested in BS on facebook at fucking all, twitter is weak. bruh, shits weak. thats where im at right now. yep. in the middle of being a kid and maturing….. and i cant go back to sleep right now. fuck.