I’ve been thinking about just changing something in my life. everyone tells me start small, and I don’t know where to start with the small things. I have faith that God will get me out of this funk I’m in. but I do need to change something. relationship status is dry. I get curved soooo much, I know when one door closes, another one opens but nigga… when is that door gonna open? everything works out for the good for those who believe, and I do believe things will be better. I just feel like I need something more and idk where to start. anyways, I thank everybody that still follows me, I appreciate it. I don’t post shit at all. but I wanna start, …sounds weird. lol but uhhh yea. wassup y’all
ok, so. whats up dudes. idk what im feeling right now, but i gotta talk. i mean, i dont have to but… yea. im gonna be working for my uncle, being his caregiver nshit. which is great, because this nigga is old and i wont really be doing anything besides house work… grocery shopping, and other miscellaneous shit.. pretty much ill get paid to do shit here and there. a pretty damn good amount too, holllaaaaaa. thats a big upside to my financial state. i want a girlfriend. ill just come out and say it, but shit, (this is just my opinion) i feel like im not good enough. trying to shake your way out of thinking like that is a task in itself. but yea, i do think im ready to be committed. idk why people think me talking to someone good looking is out of my hands. niggas will look at me like im smoking crack and grew 2 heads if i tried to talk to a girl that isnt fat, and or ugly, or both. i know that probably came out of left field but its the truth. i need to text my brother, and really talk to him. i feel like i dont have that great of a relationship with him at all, and that shit hurts. as of lately, i havent really been up to shit. not really blogging, or putting stuff on IG or rarely going on facebook. hell, the last time i went on a beat making spree was the 16th of this month. i wouldnt say im wandering, but im not motivated like i was before to do shit. i dont care about seeing the same shit each week on the gram, not interested in BS on facebook at fucking all, twitter is weak. bruh, shits weak. thats where im at right now. yep. in the middle of being a kid and maturing….. and i cant go back to sleep right now. fuck.
you’re too beautiful to be down. stay strong and positive. I love you
….this is important. very important